guess what? I LOVE MY BABYSMURF! aka MY BABYLOVE. of course i didn't change boyfriend. only the name changes, but it's still the old crazy idiot azan. ;D hahahahaha.

alright, first thing in the morning. met babylove at his house bustop.
had a slight tiff ; yes my fault again. i MISUNDERSTOOD the msg.
so yeahhh stupid me.
at first he didnt wanna talk to me y'know.. all the way in the bus, until we reached clementi he just kept quiet, &listened to his MP3.
then we're on 52 to my school, i managed to make him laugh again! YAYYYYY;D that was quite an accomplishment for me okay?
cause usually babylove take a long time to cool down. haha ;D but of course, me being his bestest girlfriend he ever had ; i knew his weaknesses. so yeappp!
then of he headed to Ngee Ann's library to do his school project, while i headed for Child Development's tutorial.

Child Development's tutorial wasn't that bad HAHA. did discussions within the class based on Monday's tutorial. my group took up most of the tutorial time sey! haha. okay skip ksip skip ; unimportant parts.

tapau-ed chicken rice from canteen one for our lunch break.
please lahh, the canteen damn crowded. and one hour is soooo not enough! so yeah. headed to OurSpace@72 but there weren't space.
so we headed to HMS Block. sat directly outside our tutorial room and ate our packed lunch -.- damn pathetic i knowwww. haha.

Language Arts's tutorial was the highlight for the day in school. we barely touched on theory! more of group discussions and played games such as Show &Tell, Round Robin or Robin Go Round (idk which one haha!), Police Officer (i think?) and Who Ate The Cookie From The Cookie Jar. funny shitszxzs laaah. especially the Police Officer game. fad damn classic ahh. purposely tricked her! hahahahahaaa.

then after that, headed The Atrium to get my Creative Arts book.
met my babylove yang tersayaaaaaaaaaaaang. grabbed farhana &shaq along to have lunch at Adam Road. they two again, damn classic. try to immitate me and babylove. hahaha ;D
me and babylove had nasi lemak, while farhana had mee soto WHICH WAS SUPERRRRRRRR SPICY and shaq had roti john cheese ayam.
slacked, talked about random stuffs and we played Truth or Truth.
okay whateverrrr. what had been said, left there. so yeahhh.
but i'll still go after farhana cause SHE DIDNT ANSWER MY QUESTION.
close to six, we separated.

me and babylove took 157 back to Boon Lay Interchange.
and we changed seats for twice! HAHA ;D first we sat at the second last seat. it was okay. then came Hwa Chong boys who sat directly in front of us, and (no offence) they stinked. so we moved to the back.
then that thingy idk what which we can move so that the air con won't blow directly to us. yeah it's spoilt. freaking cold.
so we changed. and at last, the perfect seat. LOL ;D
of course, what a bus ride without doing crazy stupid things.
hahahaha, i truly enjoy bus rides with my babylove!
haha. b, i know you know, public don't know eh? nevermind. that shall just leave it to us only! skipskipskip.

(at this point of time i lazy to colour the fonts already. too many words already ahh)

had dinner at Jurong Point's KFC and icecreams at McD.
i know wthhhhh. i just cant stop eating whenever i'm with babylove.
hahahha ;D cant control uh i dont know why. sheeeeesh -.-
so yeapp, i truly had fun with babylove. he's the sex man. LOL!
and i tynk yesterday was enough to hold on until monday.
we're DEEPAVALI-ing! hahahahahah ;D his friend is having an open house, and she said, "eh don't forget to bring your girlfriend okay?"
how honoured! (: hahh, aiite.

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danisyah's bday! ccelebrations~ ooowheeee, haha.
;D fruit cake was her choice. i don't fancy fruit cakes, but it's the princess's choice. hahh, so i shall keep mum.
but turned out that the cake is niceeeee! soft, and sweet! mmm not bad.

and immediately after eating the cake, i texted babysmurf.
"babyluvvvv! for my bday i want either cookies &cream cake from Prima Deli or ice cream cake from Swensen's. haha, kidding luh babysmurf. you can even pick up that hint, if you insist;D"
see how shame-less i am?! hahahahahaaaa.
but i know, only babyluvvv is willing to do all sorts of things for me.
so yeappp. but of course, deep down in my heart ; i dont expect surprises from him.. but if he insists, i shall not resist! LOL ;D
but seriously, no laaa. deep down in my heart ; i prayed that i get to BE WITH BABYLUVVVV on my special day. and i get to be with him on my coming birthdays. that's all.
for me, him being the FIRST to wish is already good enough.
i dont seek for presents from him. but once again if he insists, i shall not resist. HAHA!
i only seek for undying love from him. yeappp.

waaaah supposed to be updating about syasya's bday celebrations. i ended up talking about my coming one. LOL!
so yeahhh.
at night was stay at homey with family ;D
watched soccer match together ; Everton vs, Manchester United.
and YAYYYYY ;D MU didn't win the match! no offence EERA.FIERCE & SHAQ. but we strongly do not favour MU. so yeahhh. haha.
sunday's match will be Chelsea vs. Liverpool. FARHANAAAAA &IMRAN &ABG KHAI ; we'll see who win. you three or me ;D

later during the night, abg khai, abg asnol, kak jannah & kak yanti came over.
MOVIEEEEEE MARATHON.
with F&N drinks ; and 50 satay sticks!
hahahaha ;D we watched two movies only.
cause they came quite late.. yeah, and they ended up heading home at one plus in the morning.
damn shioooook siaaa.
this is what i call true cousins ; unlike some OTHER cousins of mine. budak budak kental, nak step minahrep and matrep.
damn bloody hypocrite. fuck siaaa.
WHATEVER SIOL!

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SOCCER FIESTA OVER AT MY CRIIBX!
yeahh yeahh ; haha. though im not a football fan, neither do i watch soccer.
but i can't help it siaaaa. i don't wanna be a loner. haha.
my house rocked like some shit siaaah,
only ONE LIVERPOOL SUPPORTER. siaaaa!
so you can imagine how things got kecoh(chaos) when liverpool scored a goal.
damn funny shitzxsz. everyone shouted their opinions.
referee damn bloody kayu siaaaa. eh lu botak gi tumbuh rambut sane ahhh. biased towards liverpool only.
jatuh siket je nak step macam kene attack rabak. pastu part chelsea kene attack rabak, referee buat bodohhh.
dah takde rambut, buta plak tuu. siaaaal lah! nampak sah side kan liverpool ajerrr. -.- WHATEVERRRRR.

and for a moment, i forgot that babylove didnt text me at all when he got home from work.
except for a missed call ; to just alert me that he's on his way home.
bloooody shitzsxz. i didn't bother asking him to call me siaaa.
hati mane tak saket siol. dammit.
mumsie cooked mee goreng and baked chicken+meat pizza.
YUMMMMM! haha, all here were goodsports. yeahhh, that should be the wayyy.
and though liverpool won, EVERYONE HERE AGREED ON THE SAME THING ; THAT MANCHESTER UNITED WONT WIN THE LEAGUE! muahahahahhaaaaa;D

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woke up reaaaaaaal late. like close to one pm i guess.
HAHAHAH;D lol. happy deepavali to everyone.
and to the rest ; happy waking up late! ;D

bathed and siap. left house at 2.15pm
initial plan was to take 99 from nearby then take 335 to jurong east. then walk to IMM. but nyeaaah. the bus came too late.
so i 192-ed to boon lay interchange and tarin-ed to jurong east mrt station.

siaaaaaalah! i swear the train was CONGESTED with all those banglas.
no offence, but the SMELL was super unbearable siaaah. wtffff.
and the whole cabin was full of them, i barely see any white faces. LOL. and their stares ; siaaa lah cam tak pernah nampak pompan siol. urggggh!
and ohmg here comes the irritating part. i was the only one alighting at jurong east.
and as usual, those from the red line HAS NO PATIENCE and they bareky leave me any space to walk out of the train.
and that bloody nyonya. siaaaalah. it's always the nyonyas who created this nonsense.
wanting to catch that seat. wtffff man -.-
i was sooooo pissed, i elbowed my way through and i SERIOUSLY shouted ; "EH EXCUSE ME AH! I WANT TO GET OUT RIGHT!? STUPID IMPATIENT PEOPLE. FUCK"
i dont care about all the stares i received. damn irritating siaaa.
macam train tu nak lari dari dorang sial.

okay skip those pissedoff moments.
waited for babylove outside Swensen's. haha ; saw ali guan, glenda & mansur. oh one thing ; mansur is hot. lol!
anyway, it's been ages since i last waited outside swensen's for him.
yeahhhh, haha. so there was i, being a filial girlfriend, waiting for my boyfriend patiently. HAHA ;D

188-ed to chua chu kang interchange.
met dzul, noraini &norizan. then 190-ed to shang's place.
waited for keemy and his girlfriend like forever sial!
oh yes. me, norizan &noraini agreed on one thing ; keemy's girl step mane nye kerek.
hahhh. she didnt even came to us and salam us. terus gi kat lift.
keemy yang datang.
&she didnt talk at all. except during photo taking session.
she talked to me a bit, and that's it. she didn't talk to the rest.
ohkayyy whateverrr.

dzul, as usual his crazy antics.
joget lagu bollywood, nyanyi-nyanyi.
sadly, shah wasn't there ): kinda miss him laa.
but nevermind! i'm meeting him this friday! YAYYY ;D
he's coming over to my school. haha.
aiite. ate briyani there. YUMMM! pure indian's style of cooking.
i love the chicken masala. and the dhal. EVERYTHING AAAAH haha!
camwhored, and at six, we left the place.
noraini &norizan went to meet someone, dzul head home, keemy &girlf don't know go where. and us? head jurong point.

a looooooong bus ride, again! haha ; i luvluv busrides. especially when there's not many people.
you won't smell ALL KINDS of smell. not crowded. yeahhh.
and because of the long bus ride, we both got hungry.
so stopped by jurong point's banquet. and ate again. HAHA!
and finally head home.

tonight ;
they'll be coming over again together with aunty N & cik din, for SOCCER!
phenomenal match of the day ; Chelsea vs. Liverpool!
sad siahh, only abg khai is the Liverpool supporter. the rest are Chelsea fans. except abg asnol ; Arsenal supporter. lol ; he'll be the one cooling us down if we fight. LOL!
can't wait!
farchewbacca & imran ; you should come and support the only Liverpool supporter here.

watched The Italian Job last night, immediately when i got home from school(: haha borrowed the DVD from Uncle Joe when i went to his house for raya.
borrowed 12 DVDs in all! yeah, and i had just watched one(:

in fact, i've added three more to my boyfriends list.
John Statham who acted as Handsome Rob, Mark Wahlberg as Charlie Croker and Seth Green who acted as Lyle aka The Napster in the movie.
haha, Wahlberg's charms attracted me. Statham's handsome &bad-boy look just made me go crazy.. while Green's cuteness melted me! hahahahahaaa. i think i'm influenced by farhana already.
into the fantasy world. muahahahahahaaa;D but please ehhh. farhana is wayyyyyy more worse than me.
she even coin her name with the one she idolise ; etc FARCHULETA & FARCHEWBACCA. wthhhh -.- hahhahahaaaa.

do you know what does it feel like to make someone truly happy?
to see that one you love, burst into laughters because opf what you say or what you do?
to see him/her smile, happy and enjoy your company..
haha, i truly appreciate that when i made babylove laughed like one crazy man.. he even splurted water out. cause he thought that what i had just said was very very very funny ;D
no i don't feel silly being laughed at by him.
i felt happy, cause i'm successful in making him feel happy.
in fact, he didn't feel as happy as when he's with me. how touching ehh? (:

okay enough of the commercials. i'm moving on.
that idiot bangla had apologised and mended his ways. so yeahhh.
i love him still(: though i can't accept whatever he did to me yesterday.
anyway, he came by surprise ; apologised and yeah consoled me for what had happened to me and my mum.
thanks idiot love!
oh yes i shall not be a hypocrite and delete the recent post.
i don't blog to publish only the GOOD side of my life. haha. my blog, my life, my say.
so yeah, shall leave that behind ; as part of my life(:

i wonder why. but i have been reaching school SOOOOOOOOOO super early.
haha and yeah. i vowed to myself that i shall be the ECH nerd from this semester onwards(:
in fact, i went to the library ; study a bit and brushed up my notes.
did i mention? i went alone. yes ; haha went to Jurong Point Shopping Center alone.
haha i am also learnign how to be independent.
i've been pampered by mybabylove uhhh. always depend on him. so yeahh.. it's time for me to learn how to stand on my two feet.
sometimes i wonder, how can a person go shopping alone etc. HAHA. no, i won't go shopping alone, never.
i shall slowly learn(:

okay i shall continue my update later, if i have the time(:

cause maybe? i should just throw my lenses away. and the ring?

i've been doing alot of thinking lately.
okay lah not ALOT of thinking..
oh wait wait before you go on reading this, PLEASE PLEASE be reminded that this is one of EMOTIONAL periods. nothing has happened yet, it's just my feelings okay?
so bear with me for a moment, or you can just choose to shut this window (:

yeahh as mentioned earlier, i've been having my own quiet times, usually before i turn in to bed.
and yesterday, i spent my night crying.
looking at few days back, this question popped in my head, "Are you actually the one?"
i don't know..
not that i am trying to say that i'm on the wrong tracks now.
but it seems that lately, i'm not feeling good.
not feeling great about us. it's like something is missing, or something is lacking recently.
yeah, we spent our times together and etc. but there's just that one little something that just spoils the whole mood.
once again, i don't know..
thousand ond one questions running through my mind right now..
WHY? IS IT? and so forth.
currently i'm on the IGNOREHIM status.
i just want my quiet time alone, i want to be behind the scene and see how far i've actually side track.

yesterday's conversation with farhana didn't bring me any good during the night either.
i just felt super worse.
i was feeling a little okay when i was talking to her, but when i logged off, i felt worse again ):
and now, i'm not in the mood to talk to anybody.
sorry babes who had called me on my mobile phone or smsed me, i'd either reply briefly, never reply at all or reject my calls which will then divert to his mobile phone.
and i will be starting semester 2 in this kind of situation? oh dammit.
just so as you know, i am crying as i typed this.
where are you now?
ended your work shift already, but now eating with your swensen's colleagues before heading home ; which i don't know what time you'll make your move.
i swear i fcuking miss you. but i''m not making any move either.

i'm hurt okay.
can you bring out the hero in you and save me before i get drown into my own suicidal thoughts?

hey lovelies.
i know, i know my blog is sooooooo dead eh?
haha, pardon me. busy busy busy.
work, raya outings, catching up with relatives (near and far).
so i'll catch up with my blog as soon as time permits me okay?
(: till then, you can stop hitting my site temporarily. HAHA.

mmmm.. let me think of more stupid things we did together..
oh yes and FAD'S FAVE ; SHE ESPECAILLY LOVE BREASTS GRABBING.
she's one horny girl i tell you. hahahahahaa. she's horny only when with us, don't worry.
we love to make each other high. ;D thigh-rubbing. that works for FARHANA & SHAQ.
not me (: hahahaaa.
(pauses for a few seconds) oh and during tutorials, we equipped ourselves with loads of junkies and shared toghether. haha MAMPOS. da ley buat picnic siol! ;D
and doing group works were never been a huge hassle.
though there were miscommunications at times, and a little bit of disagreement, we managed to get together and sort things out peacefully (:
and also there were crying moments. HAHAHAHAAA. cried over many stuffs.
boyfriends, studies and such.
but we were there for each other.. trying to crack stupid jokes so as to cheer each other up. (:
AND I HAVE TO SAY, THOUGH I HATED BEING THE ONLY ONE WHO ALWAYS KENE KACAU, I ACTUALLY MISS THAT.
haha.. i'm sooooo used to being teased by them at school, and now i suddenly felt so lonely.
nobody to disturb me when i'm at home.. except for when i'm with babydearest luhh.
and fad, I STILL REMEMBER THE KETIAK AZAN THINGY OKAY?! (: haha.